the first of many

The first new day since yesterday. Sounds too simple, but it's true! The first new day until I have another first tomorrow.


Not much time to deliberate in this post, because I need to get back to studying and reading up on how to apply techniques of Counseling; I will be videotaping my 'therapist-self' with a classmate today before presenting our role plays next week. It seems so strange to still be so nervous, but without much application in this kind of setting, I know too little to feel confident! Like Goethe said, "Knowing is not enough, we must apply." Let's figure this one out...


But this new day, new chapter, new job hunting. Anyone hiring? :) I am so glad to have found this place again because it's still a comfortable place to be - to be searching for something else. My planning style? Always lightyears ahead. Taking the physical time to look for work again and be in school/classes, it helps hold me more in the present moment than I often allow myself to be. Fortunately, Mike is a present-moment partner, ever supportive, and listens to where or why I take my future plans. He associates those long-distance goals to today's actions, and I think of it like an exercise routine.


Say you want to lose 10 lbs, and you envision yourself there. You walk through the Old Navy or Target and pick up that Small T-shirt, sighing to yourself with a smile that you will get there. But if you don't alter the portions or up the veggies in your eating habits, and walk with a purpose, or play tennis to literally sweat some of those changed calories, what can change? How will you reach a goal without putting steps and stretching and the time into them? My girlfriend Lindsey came to visit last night and discussed how another friend of hers seems to have everything professionally and personally "fall into place." Lindsey is also moving forward with great conviction in earning a fantastic career move for herself, and living for the first time with her boyfriend back in NY. Her life could not have fallen more into place because she lived through the other experiences to get there.


The same applies to me, in that I can't keep spinning a possible future outcome to connect with my present-day activities; rather, I need to create the life I want now each day, so that my future remains full of days and moments that carry out exactly as I envisioned from this moment.


Good luck on YOUR day today, because it is best start to achieving what you want in this moment!

a check-in

Important Goings-on: (Well, at least goings-on)

Leaving OSA June 15
Friend Lindsey here that night (phew!) on her way back to NY
Searching jobs again, but -
- so glad to be in school with a focus on what matters to whatever career I will have
ME this weekend for A+N's engagement party
Finished a fab weekend with friends, M+W, home gardening/cooking, shopping, and HW

Yes, HW!

Talk soon.