So the crazyness that was OSA this past week - 2 weeks - has hopefully sudsided for at least a couple of days. The idleness is ever present (until the boss reports back in a few days or so), but the efforts we put into some mediocre fundraising, and assembly of a tight press kit for our boss' Board Meeting yesterday is sufficient, in that's its finished; and in the words of my coworker (in a positive mindset here) "what can you do?"
What CAN you do? So much of our lives is uncontrollable - or is it? The law of attraction is a Newtonian-esque approach in that what we give, we get. I do not believe it is as absolute as the science describes, it is not always equal. But then again, humans are not equal or symmetrical like fixed objects; we are organic, free-flowing beings, made up of wonderfully systematic and methodical particles, particular to certain logistics, but overall we are evolving in ways beyond the mathematics of things.
My coworker was accurate in his pondering - we cannot control another person's actions; we can do our very best and give forth all we have, but at the end of the day, it is the combination of efforts in the workforce that generates a working progress. "What (else) can you do?" It was a defeating and uplifting sentiment all in one. My mother-in-law visited a couple weeks ago and shared a similar perspective I hope to carry always: "Enjoy today, because you are as young as you will ever be." The world shifts, things grow, people grow or remain stagnant. Reactions are important as when they do not happen, because a lack of response is an action in itself. Work-wise, the most I can do is my very best, and hope that the best outcome, the most honest outcome will reside for an organzation full of heart. Sometimes, we try our best, and the best result is whatever genuinely occurs after that fact.
School begins tomorrow, and I can't help but attribute this same feeling towards classes and the field in which I will work in the near future. As a therapist, it will not be a goal of mine to control what someone does. I can create timelines for our meetings, and offer them homework assignments to gain control over their own life. I can control the kind of rapport to a certain extent as well, but in the mind of MY actions. The best kind of relationship client-patient will not necessarily be fixed, but goals for it will be discussed during our first meeting(s). I may end up deflecting a client relationship when/if the (un)control enters the session work negatively. It could be best for the client's outlook that we are not working together in a professional setting. There may be a fine line between these difficult choices, but I believe the line is there - it may just take some proactive digging to define it.
Ultimately, I am in a great place. Whatever work is doing to me right now, I am doing to it. Despite the decisions made to continue (for the organziation, or for myself), as my boss puts it, "it's just a job." I can make the job of whatever I put in, and the same goes for my personal life. The dog is happy (and ever 'puppying' herself), the husband is well (and ever supporting me), and the future is reachable (however we choose to create it - like the choice to buy a house and have kids nearing). Life is good!
